Me..Myself...& Ana

. . .  Have been fantastic, well as fantatsic as they can get. Not eaten anything, this willpower just came out of nowhere but to be honest it couldnt have been better timing lol

i just want to dissapear im failing in all my life areas and now im being controlled by ana its not me controlling her and i feel so guilty towards her when i mess it up 
i just want to vanish 

 dont you just love it when like a stick of celery fills you up 
has just made my day :) gawd im sad 

-xo...♥

Eurgh im so tired but i just cant seem to sleep! I thought i would sleep well considering the fact that i walked four miles and have been really good with the ABC, but nope my body just wont shutdown for even six hours, man i just want to sleep. It may also be to do with the fact that my flipping mother hid my sleeping pills away from me although i dont know why she would so with that because i checked the labels and it says on them that they are no side effects especially not weight loss.

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All ive had is a tin of mushroom soup= 70 cals and then ive walked four miles so ive burnt 400 cals 
i have a good feeling about todai :D 

also want to figure this Lj cut thing out so here goes !!

Morning Everyone =] 
urgh i feel so sick its my first day of ABC and ive just eaten some noodles (175 calories) and i feel so sick and all i can think about is all of that fat but i know i have to do it. i have to follow ABC. I CAN do this and I WILL do this
Hope Everyone else id doing well 
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Chips Are So HARD To Purge 
Throat Hurts Now :( 

 Omg My Mum Has Hidden The Weighing Scales From Me So I Have No Idea On Wether Ive Made Progress Or Not Im So Annoyed Why Do Parents Do This WHy Cant They Just Stay Out Of My Business They Have Never Cared Before So Why Start Now Its So Ironic Right Now I Hate My Parents How Could They Do This To Me, Im so Scared I Need To Know My Weight argh

Ok So Start Of The Holidays And Perftect Chance To Lose Weight As Parents Are Gone For Whole Week AnyOne Up For 3 Day Fast ???  x x x x

Well Split Up With My Fiance  And Am Mega Depressed Its Unbelievable What One Sentence Can Cause. Too Top It All Off I Binged Soo Bad And Just Couldnt Throw It Up Arghhhhhh. I Cut Last Night And My Mate Seen It Started Going On At Me Saying Something Like Im Throwing My Life Away Choosing To Be Ana And Cutting I Was Like You Dont Choose To Be Ana And ARGHHHH 
Hope everyone else had a better day 

love you 
all 
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Ok Well Its My Birthday In 37 Dais And I Need To Lose Weight Extremely Fast As My Fiance Will Be Coming Over To See Me And I Havent Seen Him In A Couple Of Months Due To His Work :( So I Want To Look Good For Him. Any Tips??? x x x x